i'm back

i'm back. well, i've been back, but staying at my parents' house while A was in nyc. i couldn't sleep on the entire vacation. one night i had a sleeping pill, but the remaining 7 nights were filled with anxiety nightmares because i wasn't at home. apparently i missed a bad episode, but then they called the hospice people, who swooped in and saved the day. i'm totally in love with hospice. i always had this nebulous idea that hospice was a building filled with dying people, like an elderly ward at a hospital. now i realize how wonderful they are-we're not alone in this anymore. but i still have problems sleeping. apparently D said that he could see changes in my face and my voice; i became more tense the closer we got to coming home.

but i made it home, dealt with my grandmother and her rampant favoritism towards my aunts, and held my tongue which was a personal triumph. school starts next week, and it has either the potential to be really challenging and rewarding, or a complete waste of time and money when i should be home with mom. hopefully the former, not the latter.