yay!

so, the good news is that the tumor hasn't grown in two months, and the wound nurse at nih says the burn on mom's arm will in fact heal (maggots were offered to speed up the process, but we refused because since we can't get mom back to nih so easily, we would have to remove them ourselves, and that wasn't going to happen). and we're going to a new oncologist since ours is fine but his staff are all gigantic bitches, and the new guy's staff seems really nice. yay!

the downside to the lack of tumor growth is that even if the tumor hasn't grown, the other parts of her body which have begun to shut down will not necessarily start to work again, or even lessen the rate of decent. so i'm sort of torn because it was the best we could have hoped for, but it's still not exactly what i want to hear. i want to keep her alive and happy, but i'm not sure i can keep up this level of intensity for an undocumented length of time. there's no guarantee of any increased time line due to clots, stroke, etc., but i think we've bought ourselves a few more months. so i'm as happy as i can be, given the other options; i just wish i could be happier.